betrayal

Honoring promises is high on my list of requirements in being a person of integrity. Basically, whenever someone fails to follow through on a promise (with the exception of giving a reasonable excuse for backing out on their word) it registers as a betrayal. Whenever I've had a promise made to me broken it has affected me adversely. If you've ever been stood up then you understand where I'm coming from. No one likes to be forgotten or dumped upon. Frankly, it hurts!

Personally I would rather be told no in the first place. I would respect that honest response. It is worse to have someone back out on you at the last minute with some lame excuse.
I have experienced the intimidating demands from the bully in the school yard or the from the overbearing boss at work. We agree to outrageous terms from these individuals to secure our bodily safety and financial security. We soon learn to skip recess to avoid the bully and shirk our duties whenever the boss' head is turned away.
Are you are making too high of demands on the people in your life? Ask Yourself....
Is your personality overtly forceful in dealing with others?
Do you take advantage of the people in your life that have difficulty saying no?
Do you feel your priorities should always come first?
Is it important for you to always have your way?
That's what on my mind tonight...

Getting ready

This time of year seems so crazy. I'm doing my best to sit back and enjoy things verses running around like a chicken with my head cut off. LOL I'm calling it "Tracy Time" I'll do it or get there when I do... LOL

Last few what has happened in this crazy families life...

Yesterday was fun... Sasha had Thanksgiving dinner @ her house. She did alot better than I did my 1st time. It was fun. She's all grown up. I'm very proud of her except for letting her brother (14) drive the trash to dump by himself!!!! That made me nervous.

I'm proud of all of my rugrats...LOL I love them dearly.

Justin= Finger nail removal & 2 stitches in chin. ( 2 separate incidents) & yes they were sporting injuries. He has A & B s in school.

Sasha = Work, College life... finals last week & next week Ha Ha

Tricia = High School & being mom to a little man who will be 1year old on Dec. 27Th; Mr. Cody... Her & her X share custody She has him every other week.

Me = Work, running my business & stressing over Donnie getting out of jail Dec. 16 :(

What is serenity??

Went to Al-non meeting tonight & then come home... All is going awesome...UNTIL THE CALL FROM MY X...

I dedicate the below song to him. Maybe one day he will figure it out & not "Be done with Justin" as he said tonight. Being done with me I could careless about. His son yeah well I have a problem with that...
Why do people drink to get drunk & cover their pain?? I DON'T GET IT... & I'm mad & heartbroken& infuriated!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

EVANESCENCE LYRICS
"Call Me When You're Sober "

Don't cry to me.
If you loved me,
You would be here with me.
You want me,
Come find me.
Make up your mind.

Should I let you fall?
Lose it all?
So maybe you can remember yourself.
Can't keep believing,
We're only deceiving ourselves .
And I'm sick of the lie,
And you're too late.

Don't cry to me.
If you loved me,
You would be here with me.
You want me,
Come find me.
Make up your mind.

Couldn't take the blame.
Sick with shame.
Must be exhausting to lose your own game.
Selfishly hated,
No wonder you're jaded.
You can't play the victim this time,
And you're too late.
Don't cry to me.
If you loved me,
You would be here with me.
You want me,
Come find me.
Make up your mind.

You never call me when you're sober.
You only want it cause it's over,
It's over.

How could I have burned paradise?
How could I - you were never mine.

So don't cry to me.
If you loved me,
You would be here with me.
Don't lie to me,
Just get your things.
I've made up your mind.

Can I do this??

Let's see if this blog thing works.
I have been reading my sisters, nieces & nephews blogs... So let's see if I can keep up with this too... Any suggestions / ideas are welcome. I'm not good @ sharing things

Tonight is parent wrestling meeting. So I will find out if Justin & I are going to Mississippi for Thanks giving. Lets pray all goes well.